Just...tired

I can't seem to get fully "awake" these past few weeks. Really, I feel like I walk around and go to class in zombie mode half the time - eyes half-open, barely conscious. True, the late nights doing all the many essays that seem to pile up toward the end of the year hasn't been helping, but I think the real culprit is what I call the "end-of-the-year blues." That's what it is, I foresee the end of the year coming ever closer, and my motivation to do work drops coordinately. Meanwhile, my amount of work is increasing exponentially. In the past two weeks, I think these two things peaked in the opposite directions at the same time (no I'm not high, if I could draw you a little graph, you would understand, bah!) ... aaaannnddd so, I'm dead. Har, har! No.
It's actually not funny at all, I have straight A-'s in ALL my classes. Before you groan and start hating on me, let me explain! Granted, A-'s are not BAD, but they are the dead man's land of grades, really. You're just barely close enough to an A but you're not there yet and there is a long, long way to fall, yet the only way you could possibly bring your grade up is to get...well, an A (which obviously has been a problem for me since I only have an A-). Now the pressure's on me to get ridiculously high scores on ALL my final exams so I can bring my grade up. Otherwise, my grade will drop - all or nothing is where I am at. To be honest, sometimes I'd prefer to have a B or C just so I can have more leeway to bring my grade up or to just give up. Ughhh....